06 February 2007
Waiting, waiting, waiting
Waiting for Seven......I sent these and some other pictures to her. I hope she can see them clearly enough to recognize herself, and if she can't, I hope one of the nannies can describe the picture to her. I'd like her to have a sense of belonging or at least recognition when she first sees her bed in person.I think the dolls will come with me, and Big Bear, Little Bear, Monkey, and Kitty can stay home and keep her bed warm and cozy for her. This wait is hard. But I am not forgetting that while I am longing for "Gotcha Day," for her that day will be an abrupt and even terrifying cataclysm in her sheltered, routine-defined little life. So I wait, not patiently, devoting myself to trying to devise small places of shelter for her, against the storm that will be us. That, and being a total lunatic on eBay--don't even TRY to bid for a Hanna Andersson dress, especially a pink one, when Mom, MOM! is "nesting." It could get very ugly......
